Go ahead and be "egoistical", because it's not egoistical, it's right.

I really want to write so many things in here, the many things that are gnawing at me from the inside out, but saying some of them would defeat the whole purpose.

As *someone* said to me, I have to just get up and go after I fall. I have to change, because the person I am now is going to get nowhere.

I can do this.