I don't know how much of this post is gonna turn into crap, but here goes.


I just had some long talk with my mum about my life, and felt for the like, tenth time or smth, how much of my life I wasted. Which then begs the question, why are we even living?

Just why do we even bother oivng, when our death is inevitable? Thinking back, most of my life has been wasted doing useless crap, like playng computer games which were jus too fun not to stop once I had started.

Sorry, it's getting too philosophical, probably even for Brendan and Cyrus.

My life up till now can be summarized into this: play, play, get bored of playing, read, play, do homework, play, slack, slack, slack, feel bad for slacking and playing, then studying, then slacking again. Well reccently 4more things have been added to that list, namely do something music related, feel bad for not doing anything when feeling bad, sports, and.... Do u really want to hear the last one?

Sure?

EDIT: i deleted that part cos, well, i didnt want people reading it no more. hey, talking like this is fun!

So... What do I live for? The question still stands. I live for god, I live for my emotions, and I live for my friends. If I didn't have my friends and god, you wouldn't be reading this now. Take a much CLOSER look at the last post and you'll see why.

And if anyone sees me starting to behave like a delinquant or something, you should start worrying.'Cos like, a month ago I almost just decided to go wild and screw the exams, my studies, and so on. Basically my life.

Final thing. You know I made a promise not to get distracted by music? Well I distracted myself with other crap, and in the end broke that promise. -.-

The only promises I ever seem to keep are those I make and want to keep. So here and now, I'm gonna make a promise I wanna keep. And it's the lyrics of a song too. Can you guess?

EDIT: Deleted this part too. Did anyone get to read it? if yes, keep it a secret, please?

Call me stupid, call me ambitious.
It's my dream.

And I'm gonna do all I can to keep that.


P.S. Don't bother talking to me about this post. Do u have any idea how stupid someone feels when they write up those words on a public blog for everyone he has ever known to see?

P.P.S.S. Johnny, I'm also publcly announcing. I f***ing hate you. Irrelevant? Perhaps not.

I could go on rambling all night, about what I talked to my mum about, but my iPod's running out of battrey so...


Sweet dreams y'all

althogh I'm not gonna get any.